Gratitude

I wake up everyday. Not knowing what awaits me. Not wanting to know. You're the Greatest part of my life. Sometimes i refuse to acknowledge You. You are there, even when i want to escape You. Your reassurance, comfort, love, and patience. Dangle over me, with or without me seeking. I lose myself ever so often, but You find me. I find me in You. I don't live by Your rules, i'll be damned if i do. I don't want to be perfect for You, i want to be perfected by You. Make my mistakes, and live through the consequences. For. At the end of it all. Is that glory. That happiness. I seek to have, eternally. In my soul. Thank You. For having my back!

(01 March 2010)

Love and love...

In this moment...
I bow down ta thee... Respect ye so high. Precious gift you gave, you give. Of love. So sincere. So profound. To find it, to share it. Oh the bliss from it. Beyond all measures upon yours. I get lost just thinkin of bou it. Tinglies all over my bod. But how we waste it. Abuse it. Miss the point of it! Let's love...

(09 September 2009)

Fare ye well...

Our created spaces. Are you and me. Our created moments. Are us and we. Our created places. In our hearts they be. Our love delivers us to a heaven beyond God's. Yet we remain grounded. Upon this supercilious land. Physical forms cannot move us. We've been bonded before our time to remain beyond our time.

(24 May 2009)

Prayer (To be said when it's difficult to pray)

Lord, I am trying to pray but I am without any sense of You or Your presence; I do not want to be like this. Please help me to continue praying no matter how dead I feel. I am not even sure that I want to pray; make me keep on tryin and in your good time, give me a sense of your presence. it is so hard to continue without it, and i am very weak, i do not think that i can stay this way much longer, so please help me soon, o lord. lord, it is so difficult to start prayin that i want to get up and leave. stop me, make me stay. lord, blanket the thoughts about my daily life, which deep runnin through my mind, an let me know that you are close. it's wonderful when i feel your love in this way. if this is not right for me today, give me strength to stay put with you in darkness, and help me to know you are as much in this as in the warmth and light.

The Last Kiss

Wow, that movie gets me everytime. And I've watched it more than 15 times. But there's something Jenna's Dad says, right after Michael cheats that's just mind blowing. That might be too much, but it's close to mind blowing. I'll use powerful, I think that's better.

"It's not about feeling. It's about doing. Cause what you feel, only matters to yourself. But what you do, you do to others. You show them. That's what happens."

Iphi inkinga bhuti?

Dear African Brother.

This is addressed to You because, because men from other races rarely exhibit such revolting behaviour. Where is the issue my brother? Yes, this was written in IsiZulu so it's directly translated, pardon me. Why do You have to touch my arm? Or try kiss my face? Can You not just ask me to stop, politely. You can say "Hi" and let me continue walking. I'm not saying I'll consider Your proposal, but honestly I prefer You hollering "You're beautiful" from a distance than all the bullshit You do. On top of that, You insult me by calling me, and my Mother, all sorts of names. Do You even know my Mother? She's more of a woman than Your Mother will ever be. Purely because she raised me, and I'm a decent human being. I don't walk around uttering all sorts of profanity in the presence of other humans. Especially for something as trivial as not responding to someone's hello. Kahle kahle, iphi inkinga bhuti?

Crash

I watched Crash once. I think it left me a little traumatized, to be honest. But, this is what I remember from it:

"I think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something..."

...and it's quite relevant.

She-strong

I've been weak. I've been sad. I've been heartbroken. I've cried. I've felt like death. Defeated. Unimportant. Irrelevant. I've felt shattered. I've stumbled, I've fallen. But I'm strong. I'm so strong. My strength, it surprises me. Because. Without it, I wouldn't have gotten over each of those emotions and states. I am strong. I keep growing stronger. I am strong. I am strength.

(14-08-2011)